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The erased memories are coming back
If someday, I can dissolve it and let go.
08 August 2010 @ 10:08 pm
20 July 2009 @ 09:46 am
I'VE BEEN SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF CAUSE OF THIS
He looks so hot in baseball uniform.
AND THE HAIR ALKSHDBLASHKDBLASBDKASNDLASD
HOLY SHIT. I'D WATCH BASEBALL EVERYDAY IF HE'S PLAYING.
He's so happy T-T. Gosh, I feel so sad everytime I see him play. I mean, this was/is what he wanted/wants ever since he was little. And he totally veered off that course and into something totally different ):
From Kase by Kase:
Also, when he was twelve, before graduation, they had to write letters to their 20-year-old selves. He received his and says it was embarrassing.
He wrote things like “20-year-old Kazuya, how are you?”, “I think maybe you will appear at a baseball game in the Olympics.”, “How is it? Are you good friends with all players? What position do you have?”
MY HEART. OH god T-T.
He's so happy T-T. Gosh, I feel so sad everytime I see him play. I mean, this was/is what he wanted/wants ever since he was little. And he totally veered off that course and into something totally different ):
From Kase by Kase:
Also, when he was twelve, before graduation, they had to write letters to their 20-year-old selves. He received his and says it was embarrassing.
He wrote things like “20-year-old Kazuya, how are you?”, “I think maybe you will appear at a baseball game in the Olympics.”, “How is it? Are you good friends with all players? What position do you have?”
MY HEART. OH god T-T.
But its nice to see him play and god, he's so happy, jumping around and ugh.
I love you, you adorable piece of awesomeness.
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EDIT! MORE AWESOMENESS
Feeling: 
gloomy
gloomy15 July 2009 @ 10:16 am
I got my final gade a few days ago.
My dad called me that day and asked me if I've seen my grades yet. I said no, did they arrive in the mail?
He said yes and that I got a B and C in Algebra and PE. (My dad's voice was suspiciously calm)
I freaked the fuck out. 'Cause, what the hell. A C!?!? I...sort of expected a B+ for Algebra, but. I would still prefer an A.
And while all that is going on in my head, my dad tells me it's on the fridge. So right when I hung up, I ran to the kitchen, and oh my god, my heart was beating like crazy. I was almost hesitant to check.
I look, and, wow, a sigh of relief. Like. I felt the worries leaving my body. My dad lied to me. D: The jerk
I got straight A's :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
I can't belive I got an A in Engineering. All year I had an A+ and the stupid final brought it down. That class is not hard at all.
But...yatta~~~~!!!!! My GPA is a 4.0!
My main highschool goal is to graduate a Valedictorian :D (oh god, i'm such a geek =___=). So when I heard that I got a B and a C, I was completely crushed. But!!!! :DDDDD.
Hmm, after graduating a Valedictorian in junior high, I guess now my parents and the rest of my family expect a lot more from me. I remember one of them saying: You better become a Valedictorian in highschool, too. And that's giving me a lot of pressure.
But I think, now its more of a personal goal. To prove me best friend wrong.
MY BEST FRIEND OMG HOW DARE SHE.
I told her I'm gonna graduate highschool as a Valedictorian but she basically said its impossible. I don't know if she meant for me, or for everyone, but, wth I'm PRETTY SURE there were students that graduated with straight A's all four years. She told me that highschool is just too hard and that I can't possibly get straight A's all throughout highschool. She went and then compared me to her oh so smart brother and said that even HE didn't graduate with straight A's. I don't know how smart her brother is but...
It pissed me cause, wtf, weren't you supposed to believe in me? Like, encourange me? "Oh! I
m sure you can do it!" type of motivation. But i guess the biggest type of motivation is when someone doesn't believe you can do something, and you just want to prove that person wrong. I hope that was her secret misson xD.
I can't say anything about how she's doing with ther classes. Maybe for her higschool is hard (we go to different higschools), it's hard for me too, but I have friends to help me and that motvation get good grades to keep me going.
Now all that's out of the way... I CANNOT RELAX YET DAMMIT.
I still have to read two books and answer some stupid questions and...ugh. I still don't have a books and i think i have a month left of vacation T-T. Crap.
Oh, and before I forget:
HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!
Oh, the sparkliez.
Gosh, I watched this cartoon my whole life. I was there when it started and tuned in and before i knew it, 10 years has passsed!!! :D. Spongebob will forever bring out the child in me~~
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My dad called me that day and asked me if I've seen my grades yet. I said no, did they arrive in the mail?
He said yes and that I got a B and C in Algebra and PE. (My dad's voice was suspiciously calm)
I freaked the fuck out. 'Cause, what the hell. A C!?!? I...sort of expected a B+ for Algebra, but. I would still prefer an A.
And while all that is going on in my head, my dad tells me it's on the fridge. So right when I hung up, I ran to the kitchen, and oh my god, my heart was beating like crazy. I was almost hesitant to check.
I look, and, wow, a sigh of relief. Like. I felt the worries leaving my body. My dad lied to me. D: The jerk
I got straight A's :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
I can't belive I got an A in Engineering. All year I had an A+ and the stupid final brought it down. That class is not hard at all.
But...yatta~~~~!!!!! My GPA is a 4.0!
My main highschool goal is to graduate a Valedictorian :D (oh god, i'm such a geek =___=). So when I heard that I got a B and a C, I was completely crushed. But!!!! :DDDDD.
Hmm, after graduating a Valedictorian in junior high, I guess now my parents and the rest of my family expect a lot more from me. I remember one of them saying: You better become a Valedictorian in highschool, too. And that's giving me a lot of pressure.
But I think, now its more of a personal goal. To prove me best friend wrong.
MY BEST FRIEND OMG HOW DARE SHE.
I told her I'm gonna graduate highschool as a Valedictorian but she basically said its impossible. I don't know if she meant for me, or for everyone, but, wth I'm PRETTY SURE there were students that graduated with straight A's all four years. She told me that highschool is just too hard and that I can't possibly get straight A's all throughout highschool. She went and then compared me to her oh so smart brother and said that even HE didn't graduate with straight A's. I don't know how smart her brother is but...
It pissed me cause, wtf, weren't you supposed to believe in me? Like, encourange me? "Oh! I
m sure you can do it!" type of motivation. But i guess the biggest type of motivation is when someone doesn't believe you can do something, and you just want to prove that person wrong. I hope that was her secret misson xD.
I can't say anything about how she's doing with ther classes. Maybe for her higschool is hard (we go to different higschools), it's hard for me too, but I have friends to help me and that motvation get good grades to keep me going.
Now all that's out of the way... I CANNOT RELAX YET DAMMIT.
I still have to read two books and answer some stupid questions and...ugh. I still don't have a books and i think i have a month left of vacation T-T. Crap.
Oh, and before I forget:
HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!
Oh, the sparkliez.
Gosh, I watched this cartoon my whole life. I was there when it started and tuned in and before i knew it, 10 years has passsed!!! :D. Spongebob will forever bring out the child in me~~
♥
Feeling: 
determined
determined10 July 2009 @ 02:05 pm
Went to baseball game yesterday at SF :DD
Giants won against Padres. 9-3
First game we went to that had a winning game XD.
Then tomorrow's wedding~ Gotta get up early to prepare and stuff @_@
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xx_lovelain_xx's ryokame manip. RyoKame had me jealous XD. So i made an Akame one. Though they're not kissing. Since I was too lazy to find a Jin picture with his head turned. So i used the one from the same magazine. And plus, i don't wanna have to fix the colors so it fits, etc.
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click for a bigger size :D
And there has been no good fic lately ): For like....weeks now D: Months maybe :|.
Everyone's so busy ne~
I am left rereading older fics xDD.
Omg, I have like so many fic ideas and unfinished fics, but I'm too lazy to write/finish them. Everytime I start, I'm so into it, but then later on I start to lose interest. Ahh~ I wish i had the same motivation or interest in writing I had when I started :|. (Gah, I say this everytime but never do anything about it XD)
Oh Oh! & I am in love with my new set of icons I got like..the day before. They are so pretty *-* Specially my default :D. Any smiling Kame icons are my favorites XD.
Edit: I got bored...so I made a new header :DDD. The colors match my journal better than the last two.
Feeling: 
lazy
lazy03 July 2009 @ 02:00 pm
it took me a while to find a recent smiling jin pic for this D:
Happy 25th birthday, sexy lips :D! I hope you're having a great time celebrating with your friends and family INSTEAD OF OUT PARTYING. You should really stop clubbing, like, every night .____. Its unhealthy D:! Specially when there's work the next day. That means you didn't get much sleep at all! Eye bags are not sexy, ne~
You are not fat, you're fine the way you are :D! I really wish you'd talk more and smile more, though! I really miss the days when you were talkative and giggly. But then there are times when you are, and I'm the happiest then :'D
PLEASE WRITE MORE SONGS LIKE CARE. Lovejuice and Wonder were nice but why are they both about...clubbing and stuff. Your voice is amazing and please don't waste it by smoking! That is also unhealthy. I'm sure there's other ways to relieve stress. Go out for a massage, or smth. D:
I hope the members gave you some useful things XD. I hope Kame didn't forget again~ But then again he sang to you on the radio, lol.
Wow, 25! At this age, I'd start to think you'd want to settle down. Seeing how you love kids and always wanted to start a family and all that (i think). I'm really glad to know that you enjoy doing what you do, or else you wouldn't be here.
I wish you the best of everything, and know that I will continue to support you and KAT-TUN as long as you're still around, haha.
After all this, I'm wondering why I missed 2 Kame birthdays...I didn't make a post or anything .___.
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